Why am I becoming indescribably sad each time I come to the labs these past few days…?
Here’s a funny story for ya.
Shortly after the release of the first Kingdom Hearts, I found myself madly in love with “Simple and Clean”, and I really wanted to be able to listen to it in my free time. Now, my little ten year old little boy self thought music was only available on CDs. So what do I do?
I go to the mall. I find the nearest music store. Feverishly walk up to the girl at the counter and go:
"Umm… excuse me?"
"Umm, would you be able to tell me what CD a song is from?"
"Sure! Can you sing it?"
"ummmm…. *extremely high pitched voice* wh-ʷʰᵉᴺ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵃᴸᵏ ᵃʷᵃʸ, ʸᵒᵘ ᵈᵒᴺ’ᵗ ʰᵉᵃʳ ᵐᵉ ˢᵃʸ⋅⋅⋅"
*girl stares blankly at me*
"n-nevermind, thank you!"
*scurries out of the store*
Okay well, good news is it’s actually like… only three scenes. How hard could it be? :D
So starts a daunting project. One that will deem to be interesting or boring as hell. I just have no idea what I’m doing…
At least. Not yet.
This day is gonna truly suck. just me. and work.
Look, I don’t even know if it’s the work that’s making me dread the day, or maybe even the subject matter of the work, it’s like I’m not sure if I want to show it as my own. I know, I just KNOW that the people of the DIGM classes are so god damned judgy of others’ work, yet I haven’t done this shit in years. So what am I to do? Grin and bear it and say I’m ignorant of this kind of work?
Sigh. I just want to sit. read. hold my girlfriend. practice on my new bass. maybe even just sit in silence and think. nap. something other than this.
8 minutes until the calendar says it’s time to go. Ugh. I don’t want to go.